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Weird Environment
03:55
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Burned my life down to the ground
Emptied out the Hungry Ghost
Wrote a sad song to get it out
If it helped I didn’t notice
Got my space but I need a couch
I’m adrift or I’m an island
When I think too much about it
All the lights go ultraviolet
Really coming down today
Gimme somewhere dry to spend the night
I can sleep in anything
I don’t need to shut my eyes too tight
I’m a weird environment these days
Map me out but then winds change
Every hour takes a week
I’m a weird environment these days
Another night out in this place
Take me home or out to sea
Don’t leave
In the morning when we wake up
And there’s water to the bedposts
And you’re washing off your makeup
And I’m washed out like the Gulf Coast
I’m a weird environment these days
Map me out but then winds change
Every hour takes a week
I’m a weird environment these days
Another night out in this place
Take me home or out to sea
Don’t leave
Don’t leave
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2. |
Didn't Want You To
04:10
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It’s a crisis everyday
And you’re the one to blame
The atmosphere in here
Is peeling off the paint
I water all the plants
I keep the place clean
The space that’s in my bed
Haunts me when I sleep
You linger in the air
But you’re no oxygen
You probably wouldn’t care
I’m still here breathing in
If you didn’t want me
I didn’t want you to
You don’t get my love
If you’re just passing through
I’ll find my way
Out of this place soon
Cuz if you didn’t want me
I didn’t want you to
I made myself your home
I made myself your kin
You barely cracked the door
You never wanted in
Your eyes were on the prowl
My roots were in the ground
You didn’t wanna grow
You were too busy climbing out
If you didn’t want me
I didn’t want you to
You don’t get my love
If you’re just passing through
I’ll find my way
Out of this place soon
Cuz if you didn’t want me
I didn’t want you to
I didn’t want you to
Finally got you out
This new home’s like new skin
The windows get good light
And the plants are thriving
If you didn’t want me
I didn’t want you to
You don’t get my love
If you’re just passing through
I’ll find my way
Out of this place soon
Cuz if you didn’t want me
I didn’t want you to
I didn’t want you to
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3. |
Can't Unsee It
04:17
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Never knew I needed you in my life
Now I see you, I can’t believe it
Showed me love I never knew could be mine
Now I see it, I can’t unsee it
Opened all the doors and you looked right through me
Saw the place was empty and you moved right in
You lit up the room and I can’t unsee you now
Look at me now
Look at me now
Is it love if it lives in the shadows sometimes
Feel a need but to not be needed
When we’d kiss I’d know it wasn’t always me on your mind
When I’d see it, could not unsee it
Opened all the doors and you looked right through me
Saw the place was empty and you moved right in
You lit up the room and I can’t unsee you now
Look at me now
Look at me now
In between what you’d show me and what you would hide
Was a sadness that grew unheeded
My love brought a loneliness you couldn’t abide
Once you see it, could not unsee it
Broke down all the doors when you ran right through me
Saw the place was empty and you blew right in
Never meant to you what you meant to me now
Look at me now
Look at me now
Busted all the windows when you stormed right through
me
Flooded all the spaces where the walls had been
Water in my eyes and I just can’t see you now
Look at me now
Look at me now
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4. |
Arms
04:04
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In between what you’d show me and what you would hide
Was a sadness that grew unheeded
My love brought a loneliness you couldn’t abide
Once you see it, could not unsee it
Broke down all the doors when you ran right through me
Saw the place was empty and you blew right in
Never meant to you what you meant to me now
Look at me now
Look at me now
Busted all the windows when you stormed right through
me
Flooded all the spaces where the walls had been
Water in my eyes and I just can’t see you now
Look at me now
Look at me now
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04 Arms
If I was your neighbor
I’d sit by your steps each day
And bring you the paper
Just to hear you remember my name
If I served you coffee
Put my heart in each cup I’d make
That’d be me, the caffeine in your blood
Little more with each sip you take
Oh I’m falling for you so madly
As soon as I leave, I just want to come back
And I know this is going to end badly
Cuz it feels like you are the one thing that I have
And who am I to hold you when you have arms for the
whole world?
Who am I to hold you when you have arms for the world?
If you sent me a message
It would read with the warmth of your touch
I’d hang on each word of each line
Pulling life out of zeroes and ones
If we went to dinner
It would fill me for more than a night
We’d stay til they closed up
Wiped the tables and turned out the lights
Oh I’ve fallen for you so madly
As soon as I leave, I just want to come back
And I know this is going to end badly
Cuz it feels like you are the one thing that I have
And who am I to hold you when you have arms for the
whole world?
Who am I to hold you when you have arms for the world?
If I was still your lover
I’d whisper to you every night
That I’d never do all of the things that I did
If you shivered I’d pull you in tight
Oh I’d fallen for you so madly
As soon as you left, I just wanted you back
I knew this was going to end badly
Cuz it feels like you were the one thing that I had
But who was I to hold you when you had arms for the
whole world?
Who was I to hold you when you had arms for the world?
Who was I?
Who was I?
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5. |
Makes Me Want You
03:01
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An hour with you, a week alone
I haunt a house that’s not a home
The empty feeling comes to spend the night again
Drifting through the doors you shut and rooms you left
But when you leave me it just makes me want you more
Give me just enough to keep me by the door
Fall asleep in the sweater that you wore
When you leave me it makes me want you
Survive the nights and linger on
It’s hollow at the heart of love
The ecstasy of emptiness
To never have is effortless
When you leave me it just makes me want you more
Give me just enough to keep me by the door
Fall asleep in the sweater that you wore
When you leave me it makes me want you
Your eyes, your mouth, your hands
Your warmth, your touch, it makes me want you
Your arms, your chest, your voice
Your bed, your body, it makes me want you
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6. |
My Love is a Loneliness
03:48
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My love is a loneliness
It sits just next to greed
It comes on quick and wasteful
It uses up and leaves
My love is an emptiness
To hold but never have
It’s permanently fleeting
It runs right through your hands
If everyone leaves and everyone dies
It’s just a question of when
If everyone cheats and everyone lies
Rather it me than them
My love is a loneliness
It lives right next to grief
A door you only exit
A room you only leave
My love is a selfishness
My love is a thief
It comes in quick and quiet
It takes more than it needs
If everyone leaves and everyone dies
It’s just a question of when
If everyone cheats and everyone lies
Rather it me than them
If the worst should happen
And it will, and will again
I will still be standing
With loneliness, my friend
To start again
If the worst should happen
And it will, and will again
I will still be standing
With loneliness, my friend
My love is a loneliness
It knows the way of things
There are no surprises
If everyone leaves and everyone dies
It’s just a question of when
If everyone cheats and everyone lies
Rather it me than them
If the worst should happen
And it will, and will again
I will still be standing
With loneliness, my friend
To start again
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7. |
Useful Lies
04:04
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Well I guess there were some clues
There was a part of you I never knew
When you’d say goodnight I’d wonder where you went
When you were sad you were so different then
But we were young and so in love
In every photo we looked beautiful
When we’d walk the eyes would follow down the street
I’d hold your hand to feel their jealousy
Built my life around your useful lies
Dancing in the corner while the storm went by
All my days behind your careful lines
While the only thing that happened was time
You would call me from the road
And only tell me about the shows
When you’d come home there would be less of you each
time
The rest you kept somewhere I knew would not be mine
Built my life around your useful lies
Dancing in the corner while the storm went by
All my days behind your careful lines
While the only thing that happened was time
Now I wonder when you knew
And why I didn’t ever notice too
I knew the lines but I never saw the play
I heard the warnings but I stood right in the way
Built my life around your useful lies
Dancing in the corner while the storm went by
All my days behind your careful lines
While the only thing that happened was time
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8. |
Wasting on Me
03:39
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Never meant to lead you down a road to sadness
But we arrived where there’s nothing to be done
Could pretend there was a moment when we lost it
But we were running different races from the gun
You got all this time to do what you want
To find yourself a place you wanna be
And give your love to whoever you want
As long as you’re not wasting on me
Like a run in the fabric of a summer
I’m a thread you should have never pulled at all
If now and then a story leads you back to my name
Go ahead and just rewrite me by the fall
You got all this time to do what you want
To find yourself a place you wanna be
And give your love to whoever you want
As long as you’re not wasting on me
You’re wasting on me
You’re wasting on me
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9. |
You Owe Me
02:24
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Bet you forget, we went to see my mother
Said you were allergic to her cats
Whenever we would visit she would clean the place for
hours
You never thanked her for that
You just had me acting like you’d be worth the wait
But I don’t think you ever tried to know me
The more I linger on it, the more it turns to hate
Even if time isn’t money, you owe me
Bet you forget that time on Coney Island
When you broke my heart by surprise
And I had to get my stuff out of your parents’ basement
Your father wouldn’t even meet my eyes
You just had me acting like you’d be worth the wait
But I don’t think you ever tried to know me
The more I linger on it, the more it turns to hate
Even if time isn’t money, you owe me
All the while you were acting like some departed saint
And at the time I never even noticed
Don’t know why I thought that you’d be worth the wait
Even if time isn’t money, you owe me
Our time was never money, but you owe me
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San Fermin Brooklyn, New York
San Fermin is the brainchild of Brooklyn's Ellis Ludwig-Leone, an artist with a broad musical background who sharpened his teeth working with classical composer Nico Muhly. Emerging in 2013 with their stylistically diverse eponymous debut, the collective's sound has evolved over the years with electronic pop and experimental rock adding new colors to their distinctive modern chamber pop. ... more
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